one

back to square one.
what the fuck are you trying to tell me life?

feelings

strange strong ones.
filling into my brain and heart with no filter
the lid is taken off
my eyes are open

melbourne has taught me alot about people and group dynamics. or maybe just the people and group dynamics here.
its taught me to overcome social fears, be solid in myself, start to really not be phased by peoples opinions of me or per say not let others negativity become my own negativity.
my time here has taught me to be strong within myself, always trust your gut and sometimes you have to be selfish and listen to what you know is right in your heart and what the little voice in your head is saying.
i have let people down and friendships have changed but i know that my time here is important to me and i should have a good time and take every opportunity that comes my way

hmm

Let Me Down Easy
Let Me Down Easy
Let Me Down Easy
Let Me Down Easy
When I rest my weary head
After all my words are said
When my eyelids close
with the weight of a
hundred years
Please Let Me Down Easy
Let Me Down Easy
My boat can slip away
into a calmer sea
Let Me Down Easy
I know there'll be nothing to fear
Let Me Down Easy
Let Me Down Easy
Let Me Down Easy
Let Me Down Easy
My body slips away out
into weightlessness
Let Me Down Easy
Now I know that there's
nothing to fear
Let Me Down Easy
Let Me Down Easy
Let Me Down Easy
Let Me Down Easy
When I rest my aching heart
After it's been torn apart
When my tears have
flowed on the tide of a
hundred seas
Please Let Me Down Easy
Let Me Down Easy
Affection slips away into my memory
Let Me Down Easy
There's a better time waiting for me
Let Me Down Easy
Let Me Down Easy
Let Me Down Easy
Let Me Down Easy
Let Me Down Easy

oh.

soft
intense magnetism
love
gentle beautiful electricity

moonlight

lingering in this pleasant land of nod,
touching the tips of my fingertips with my own two hands.

it

was beautiful while it was there
and still remains beautiful
and always will

under the water there are traps, hidden depths

Then finally,
we opened the box, we couldn’t find any rules.
Our heads were reeling with the glitter of possibilities, contingencies...
but with ever increasing faith we decided to go ahead and just ignore them,
despite tremendous pressure to capitulate with fate.

everything is a feeling
overwhelming sensitive senses
nervous system explodes but stays attentive
vibes
vibes
vibes
mind brain overload
melt down to a burnt out flame
that was once the thing

Ah ah ah ah,
Staying alive, staying alive.

..and so I smoke myself into a black hole of oblivion..

get it
out
out
out
out
out
out
out

progress
constant
change
over
remaining

let it
out
out
out
out
out
out
out.

stupid scarlett,
head in a cloudy daze,
too much energy wasted,
not enough for me,
need to regain it again.

why do all these fuckwits keep coming into my life stealing all my energy
why don't i tell them all to fuck off its my life its within my control
i hate how i feel some of the time ggaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

And nobody nowhere understands anything
About me and all my dreams
Lost at sea

criticism

.

Control me, stranger. From the day I was born to the day I shall die.
Smother me with your strength and power. I need some energy.
The sun may give me energy but not love.
Where do I find my self?

Wild, white horses
They will take me away
And the tenderness I feel
Will send the dark underneath
Will I follow?

Through the glory of life
I will scatter on the floor
Disappointed and sore
And in my thoughts I have bled
For the riddles I've been fed
Another lie moves over

oh yes

no no no no no
don't do it
to
yourself

can't even fucking connect

Sin, Slave of Sensasion.