We are black swans

It was harder than I thought it would be, just to see that sudden move so quickly dropped and so quickly put back in to place with another being. Why does this happen, all this bullshit? Why aren't you here with me, why are you with her? Do you still even care about what I'm doing, are we going to ever see each other again?

The experience of you leaving and going is fine, its just when you don't come back and you don't want to come back. I don't get you. I don't know what to think.

But I can't sleep because you're in my thoughts 24/7 and I can't help but cry when I think about you.

Tick, tock, over and over again, there you are.

You won't leave until I make you, but I don't want to let go quite just yet.

Why does life hand me a big load of shit when I try so hard to make it beautiful for everyone that deserves beauty? Just come back to me when you're done and be honest with me, I still want to kiss you just as much as I did last week. I wish you didn't go.. I just miss your touch.