I wish I could hibernate away for long periods of time and just forget that I had to conform to this system sometimes.

I hate being negative about things, but I'm skeptic and I'm anxious that things aren't going to be okay sometimes. Even though most of the time things are fine.

Sometimes I wish I could take all the people that I loved and cared about and the people who cared about me back away with me in to a forest to live and just not have to worry about all these people around me who don't seem to have any interest in anything that I care about.

I just feel like a dickhead, but I don't know..

Feel like I'm waiting for everything all at once, and feel like I'm going delusional. I can see things that aren't there and hear voices, not threatening voices just faint voices, faint sounds and such other. I feel like the people I want to be with me aren't with me under certain circumstances and I wish it wasn't like that. I don't know what to think or how to feel, and I constantly just block my emotions away from my head, try and think about other peoples problems because I don't want to deal with my own.

I'm just really confused I just want to feel appreciated by someone.

The end.

Today was a nice day though, I need to stop seeing things so gloomily, I just want to feel, just want to be real. But everything is okay. Everything is fine.

Caught in a rats nest, this concrete jungle is doing my head in.