fuck you

The feeling of being down has become a mutual feeling, I'm down all the time now and don't know where to go or what to do. I'm fucking sick of being a shit person and always having a guard up behind the real me.

I feel disliked and inadequate compared to everyone around me.

I want somebody to come along and kindly prise me open, because I need to open. I want this one person I miss so dearly to listen to me instead of being horrible to me and taking me for granted. Its not always you find someone who listens and tries to help.

I've fucking needed a cry for so long.